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[Lightstorm]

Time I think, has come, to explain a great many things.
My absence from the site, what has been going on in my life, and who I really am.
I hope that you continue to see me as a friend after this, and that I will be able to remain on the site, but that determination requires more data then is presently available. As such, the information I will be sharing will be on a strictly optional basis.
Lets start 3 years ago, when I was 16, and I first stumbled upon this site it seems like its been forever, and it nearly has been. At that point I was at...to say, a critical juncture in my life, as a person, I was rather lost, I didn't know who, or what I was, I was a freak. I had no friends and no social life worth speaking of. I kept to myself and rarely left my room. Since then, using this site, and others, such as the Code Lyoko forums, the Petroglyph forums, and many other online locations, I slowly, and through the help of some friends and with this...experiment, I have come to realize what I am and who I am.
To put it bluntly, I'm 19 years old, not 18, I live in New York, not Maine, and I'm male to female transgender.
Sam, as a person does exist, and I wouldn't have been able to do any of this without her help. The entire experiment was her idea. The pictures are of her and yes, she does check up on this site occasionally, even though this is REALLY not her area of interest.
My real name is Wren, I'm currently living fully as a girl, and am happier with myself, and my life as a result of it. Which has contributed to my absence from this site, basically, I got a social life, I started getting friends in real life, and just now, am I finding time again to use the internet.
The other reason I've been gone, is mostly out of shame. I hate the idea of having lied to everyone. The experiment, which was to say, seeing how I liked being a girl, in a medium where my identity was unknown, was an extremely important part of my development as a person, and I wouldn't be here without that. But at the same time, it was you, and many others, who helped me realize that, a lot of you are good friends.
I hated this sham, but I understood the necessity of it. The project we'd started had a lot of work on our end, we made up journals, and diaries of experiences, compared and contrasted, and it basically allowed me to try out living as a girl, before I came out to everyone in real life, I was making sure it was what I really wanted.
But now the experiment is older. If I followed what we had established as protocol, the entire existence of this online version of Sam, would be terminated, and if I wanted to stay in the community, I'd reregister as Tsakara (yes, that is me who you were talking to on the petro forums), but I was unwilling to give up on the friends I've made, and completely replace myself in the community, and since I can't help but find myself drawn back here. I feel compelled to tell you all the truth.

I'm sorry for the deception, I can understand if you dislike me for this.

Oh and btw, my hair actually is pink; well, blonde with pink tips...and blue dreadlocks...I'll get a pic up when I find the cord for my camera, till then, I'll put up the old picture of it blue.

[MT.]

I didn't know you to begin with, but hello wren. Good to see you learned to deal with your identity uncertainty and come out telling the truth, with not too much regrets (it seems).